I leisurely sit at my desk scrolling through the latest real estate news on my trusty laptop, keeping up to date on the market. All while multitasking and playing catch up reading my Wall Street Journal. Oh how exciting........NOT!!!
The other day as I tried to meditate in silence, I realized that I needed to figure out what I truly wanted. For years I've tried to be everything to everyone but myself and I ended up losing a part of myself, which I've been struggling to get back.
After thirteen years of being in a marriage that not only had broken my heart but also my spirit, I realized that I had built a wall within myself and I'm finding it difficult to tear it down. So lately I feel as if I'm in a constant battle over this.
There are days where I feel like I'm just existing but I don't feel alive, if that makes any sense. I go through the motions but there's something missing and it's the fire that once burned fiercely within me. So I struggle to get that back but it hasn't been easy and I will not give up until that fire burns brightly once again.. So I will do whatever is necessary to make it so, even if I have to force myself to open up to the possibilities!!!!