Taking It One Step At A Time

Life has certainly had it's up's and down's for me but I continue to move forward with an optimistic attitude. I guess that's what gets me through the down times along with my faith and there has been plenty down times within these past couple of years.

I'm not affraid to say that I've fought with depression a great deal these past couple of years, forcing myself to face the day when in fact I wanted to stay in bed and just sleep the day away but it just wasn't an option for me. I have to climb that mountain no matter what the struggle may be because I know once I reach the top, there is nothing I can't accomplish!!!!

Another thing that helps me through is "graditude"!!! I am so grateful for my friends, my family, my fans who have shown me much love, understanding and have encourage me every step of the way. You give me strength!!! I love you all and I feel very blessed to have you in my life. I know when I am down all I have to do is smile and start thinking about the many happy moments I've experienced within my life then joy over comes me. Lately, I've had plenty of happy moments because of a special someone who's been part of my life for over a year. Just thinking about them brings a smile to my face but I will keep that secret for the time being even though locally a lot of individuals know who that person is. . . .

Anyway, I'm slowly getting back into the modeling biz. I've been doing a little freelance personal fashion stylist work and showing my support by attending local fashion events such as the "Gretchy Launch Party", Fashion Week Columbus, and the "Seven Deadly Sins" fashion show but now I'm making plans to travel to New York, Chicago, L.A. and Miami. It's time for me to shine once again!!!! As I've said before and will continue to say, "I'm like fine wine, I just get even better with time"!!!! :)

To see if this is true, just checkout my latest photos on my "Facebook Page"!!!

Before I go, a little tibit. Last night me and some friends went to a wine bar in the Short North called Mouton located at 954 N. High St. The decor may not have be five stars but the experience I had there certainly earned it five stars in my book. The atmosphere was very laid back. The service was right on point and the owner made the experience very warm and personal. So make sure to check it out and to all you out of towner's make sure to put it on your "places to visit" when you come to Columbus.

Can't Keep A Good Woman Down. . . .

As Mary J. Blige sings, "You can't keep a good woman down"!!! How true, how true!!!

Like I've mentioned before, I hit a few rough patches over the years which had me down but not out.

Life tends to test us every now and then. It's amazing that you find out just how strong you are when you are put through these test. Also the wisdom you obtain. You also discover the people who are truly there for you. Life is always teaching us a valuable lesson.

Without going into detail, I was in a relationship which drained me of my "Happy Go Lucky" spirit and almost sucked the life out of me. It's amazing how being in a toxic relationship can change you drastically but I'm recovering!!!

I'm hoping that the residue from the troubled relationship will not carry over into a new possible relationship. I'm a good woman and I deserve to be with a good man. I will no longer settle for less!!!

I not going to lie, the walls are up and it's going to be a little tough to tear them down.

In the meantime, I have my dear friends, close family members and the two loves of my life, my daughter and son that keep me going.

As some of you may have noticed, I did take a hiatus from the modeling to work on other projects but I'm slowly working my way back into it. So expect to see new photos popping up soon on my  modeling site :)

Meanwhile, I've been running my Personal Fashion Stylist Service and working on launching "Probleme Resolu" a personal conceirge/errand service, along trying to maintain my social status (party girl can't fade away) : )

As I've said before, I'm like a Phoenix rising. . . so watch out!!!

xoxo

Living Life

I have to say that I've been off my game for awhile, dealing with a lot of personal issues but I'm happy to say that I'm bouncing back. A Phoenix rising baby, a Phoenix rising!!!!Working on my sites, taking on newer projects, regaining my creativity and confidence. Along with getting back into the local social scene.

I tell you one thing, it's wonderful to have friends and family that are there for you in your time of need especially during these times when everything seems to be a bit grey. Like what's happening over in Haiti. Seeing what's been going on over there certainly makes me feel a lot more grateful for the good things that I do have in my life. My heart and my prayers go out to the victims of Haiti's earthquake. May God be with you and your families.

Tired of Being Tested. . . .

I swear, for the past several months it seems my life has consisted of one test after another. Especially when itt comes to how much cramp I can handle. I mean really!!!! Are you f@#king kidding me!!!!
It amazes me how people love to test your patience!!! They love to see how far they can push you like it's some type of joke or other words, see if they can really piss you off!!!!

I know, I know the saying is "if you let them get to you then they control the situation, therefore you have to remain calm and let it go". Yeah, easier said then done!!!!

Hmmmm, I think it's time to go doing a little workout on my punching bag. That tends to release my frustrations. . . .

The Battle. . . .

Here I sit looking outside my window at the whiteness that covers the ground, wishing that I was somewhere else preferably warmer gazing unto the clear blue sunny skies as a warm breeze cascades over me.

Needing a heavenly calm and peace to wash over me. For the past several months I've been trying to find a sense of well being while fighting off the negative things that try to continiously invade my life.

In the mist of all the stress, I've somehow lost that spark and I'm fighting so desperately to get it back.

I'm hating the feeling of sadness and helplessness that I seem to battle lately. It's not me!!!!
I have to find that fire within me to rekindle so I may remove myself from a situation that has caused me much unhappiness and truly enjoy the wonderous things along with the wonderous people in my life.

When I said this year was going to be the begining of a more positive and joyous life for me, I meant it. Nothing and no one will stand in my way!!! Not ever again!!!!

These may be ramblings to others but for those who know me, they know exactly what I am talking about.
I am a phoenix rising, so watch out :)