Can't Keep A Good Woman Down. . . .

As Mary J. Blige sings, "You can't keep a good woman down"!!! How true, how true!!!

Like I've mentioned before, I hit a few rough patches over the years which had me down but not out.

Life tends to test us every now and then. It's amazing that you find out just how strong you are when you are put through these test. Also the wisdom you obtain. You also discover the people who are truly there for you. Life is always teaching us a valuable lesson.

Without going into detail, I was in a relationship which drained me of my "Happy Go Lucky" spirit and almost sucked the life out of me. It's amazing how being in a toxic relationship can change you drastically but I'm recovering!!!

I'm hoping that the residue from the troubled relationship will not carry over into a new possible relationship. I'm a good woman and I deserve to be with a good man. I will no longer settle for less!!!

I not going to lie, the walls are up and it's going to be a little tough to tear them down.

In the meantime, I have my dear friends, close family members and the two loves of my life, my daughter and son that keep me going.

As some of you may have noticed, I did take a hiatus from the modeling to work on other projects but I'm slowly working my way back into it. So expect to see new photos popping up soon on my  modeling site :)

Meanwhile, I've been running my Personal Fashion Stylist Service and working on launching "Probleme Resolu" a personal conceirge/errand service, along trying to maintain my social status (party girl can't fade away) : )

As I've said before, I'm like a Phoenix rising. . . so watch out!!!

xoxo

Living Life

I have to say that I've been off my game for awhile, dealing with a lot of personal issues but I'm happy to say that I'm bouncing back. A Phoenix rising baby, a Phoenix rising!!!!Working on my sites, taking on newer projects, regaining my creativity and confidence. Along with getting back into the local social scene.

I tell you one thing, it's wonderful to have friends and family that are there for you in your time of need especially during these times when everything seems to be a bit grey. Like what's happening over in Haiti. Seeing what's been going on over there certainly makes me feel a lot more grateful for the good things that I do have in my life. My heart and my prayers go out to the victims of Haiti's earthquake. May God be with you and your families.

Tired of Being Tested. . . .

I swear, for the past several months it seems my life has consisted of one test after another. Especially when itt comes to how much cramp I can handle. I mean really!!!! Are you f@#king kidding me!!!!
It amazes me how people love to test your patience!!! They love to see how far they can push you like it's some type of joke or other words, see if they can really piss you off!!!!

I know, I know the saying is "if you let them get to you then they control the situation, therefore you have to remain calm and let it go". Yeah, easier said then done!!!!

Hmmmm, I think it's time to go doing a little workout on my punching bag. That tends to release my frustrations. . . .

The Battle. . . .

Here I sit looking outside my window at the whiteness that covers the ground, wishing that I was somewhere else preferably warmer gazing unto the clear blue sunny skies as a warm breeze cascades over me.

Needing a heavenly calm and peace to wash over me. For the past several months I've been trying to find a sense of well being while fighting off the negative things that try to continiously invade my life.

In the mist of all the stress, I've somehow lost that spark and I'm fighting so desperately to get it back.

I'm hating the feeling of sadness and helplessness that I seem to battle lately. It's not me!!!!
I have to find that fire within me to rekindle so I may remove myself from a situation that has caused me much unhappiness and truly enjoy the wonderous things along with the wonderous people in my life.

When I said this year was going to be the begining of a more positive and joyous life for me, I meant it. Nothing and no one will stand in my way!!! Not ever again!!!!

These may be ramblings to others but for those who know me, they know exactly what I am talking about.
I am a phoenix rising, so watch out :)

In Limbo

I know that it's been awhile since I've posted an entry within my blog. It's just a lot has been going on within my personal life and it has me going every which way but loose. I'm working real hard on getting things back on track and my creative juices flowing freely once again.

One must remember not to let negative people get the best of you because they try to dominate and bring you down with them. This is what happened to me and now I'm fighting my way back to being an optimistic and positive person once again. Surrounding myself with positive people, cleansing the mind, body and spirit while getting involved with worthwhile causes.

So stay tuned for projects that I have in the works, along with information on people, places and things within my local area because I'm back in the saddle again :)

The Day of Rememberance

January 20, 2009 marks a new historical moment in a American history as our nation's first Black president Barack Obama is worn into office as the 44th president of the United States of America, bring true meaning to the word United. It seems so surreal to me. I never thought in a million years, like so many others that I would be alive to witness this day. Words cannot express the joy and pride I truly feel to be an American on this day.

To see all the different nationalities and religions come together on this day to celebrate this momentous occasion was a wonderful sight and as our newly elected president Obama gave his Inaugural speech, I became teary eyed filled with hope and optimism.

We all know that he has a tough road ahead of him regarding the economy, health care and the environment to name a few of the problems he will face in office but I truly believe that he has the American people's best interest at heart. Therefore, before it's all said and done we all will witness a greater, stronger and truly united America!!!

So to all of the fashionistas, fashionable people and Americans everywhere, here's to our 44th president, President Barack Obama!!!

What Are They Doing???

Yesterday, I watched C-Span. Yes a pretty face with a brain go figure. . . lol
Yes, there are many facets to moi believe it or not :)
Now back to about me watching C-Span. . .

Members of congress were interrogating an intern from the Department of Treasury about the use of money from the Bail Out Plan.

I found it fascinating how there was no clear cut plan on how the money was going to be used. Nor were there any rules or stipulations on how the money was to be distributed. So we, the tax payers who were not thrilled about the Bail Out Plan in the first place are screwed once again. (I think there should be a Major investigation done regarding the whole situation because some things are not adding up!!!)

It goes to show that the senators we put in office don't know what the hell their doing or voting for (like the war in Iraq and the Patriot Act which most Americans were against also) nor do they have a clue when it comes to helping our country out of this financial crisis. For the senators who didn't want to vote for the Bail Out Plan but voted anyway, SHAME ON YOU for not standing up for the rights of the American people!!! Someone has to show some guts!!! If you're not going to stand for us, then don't stand at all!!!

I think it's time to put together a committee of smart, successful business men who can draw up a clear cut plan that will not be confusing to the members of congress or the American people that will help America's financial crisis.

Also I believe that it's high time for the creation of a political bipartisan party who is truly looking out for the Americans and their country's best interest instead of their own. A party that cannot be brought by special interest groups. A party that will take care of those who show the slightest sign of corruption. A party that will truly try it's best to unify this country. I know I'm a dreamer but I'm also an optimist who believes anything is possible.

I, along with other Americans have become tired of the partisanship between the Republicans and Democrats. Along with the fact I don't believe neither parties have worked to earn the trust or loyalty of the American people for quite a long time!!!