Not Broken (A short story-Pg.2)

The day started off with the sun shining beautifully high above the clouds as the cool autumn breeze drifted through the air.

Finally the day was over and done. As predicted she greeted the day with a smile to shield the world from the heartache that she was feeling. It wasn't only him, she was also dealing with family problems along with other personal issues. She knew she had no choice but to keep it together and be strong.

Luckily this day was quite easy and not too many stressful situations to content with but yet thoughts of him lingered along with the other issues. Why oh why, she thought to herself and then quietly she said to herself, "this too shall pass".

Arriving home she goes through her mail while walking towards the kitchen to open up a bottle of sparkling wine that she had chilling in the frig. Finally getting it opened after struggling for a second she pours herself a glass and downs it. Then she pours herself another glass, taking it along with the bottle she heads upstairs to her spacious master suite.

She walks into the master bathroom with the bottle of sparkling wine and glass still in tow as she slips off her high heels. Placing the bottle and glass on the side of her sunk in tub she reaches to turn the hot water on. Sitting on the edge she pours lavender bubble bath foam and lavender baby oil into running water. As soon as the water reaches the desirable height, she shuts the water off and walks over to the shower and turns it on then she begins to unclothe.

After taking a quick shower, she slowly sinks into the bubble bath that's still quite warm. She begins to lite the candles surrounding the edge of the bathtub. Afterwards she leans her head back onto her bath pillow, picks up the glass of sparkling wine sitting beside her, takes a sip then sits the glass back down.

Soon she closes her eyes listening to a Nora Jones song playing in the background on the smooth jazz station she created on her Pandora's playlist. Soon the moment was taking her away from everything.

Peace and calm has taken over her, she begins to feel euphoric then her phone begins to ring....

Not broken (A short story-Pg.1)

The moon shines brightly outside her bedroom window, giving light to the darkness that surrounds her.

Silence blankets her as she lies there, tears falling down her gentle face.

 

A long hard day filled with unending stress and pain has taken over her, leaving her drained wanting to feel numb.

 

Outside she is a woman full of strength, wisdom and optimism. Inside she is weak crying, wanting to be held tightly, to feel safe.

 

This very moment she is shattered but not broken. Tomorrow she will rise to greet the day with a smile, shielding the world from her pain.

June Events

As the weather begins to get hot, we're reminded that "summer" is right around the corner.
Trips, the frequent trips to the pool and then theres the many events happening this month.

Easton's Food Fest began June 9th and last until the 14th. The Arts Festival and Park Street Festival begins today, Friday June 12th and last until the 14th.

For the Fashionista's like myself, on the 17th of June CMH host it's Fashion Week Launch Party, a must attend event!!

All on the weekend of June 19th, there's Pride Fest, Creekside Blues & Jazz Fest and Juneteenth.

Then of course the wonderful and forever growing Community Festival (aka Comfest)!!!

I'm hoping to attend most if not all of them!!!! Hope to see you there!!!

Let My Spirit Dance

My spirit wishes to dance.

We curtsey before we begin, twirling round and around feeling the rhythm that fills our soul. Silencing the world around us taking in the nuance and exotic undertones, as a feeling of wonder and ecstasy takes over.

Lost in the music of passion that plays within, while time has no purpose. Once again my spirit feels alive and its innocents restored.

Oh how beautiful a dance where my spirit can be vulnerable, happy and free.
Ah, what a feeling!!!
Do you care to join us....

My Passion...

This morning I saw this: 

This is exactly what I've been working on regaining, MY PASSION!!!

I will create again, I will write again, I will reignite my passion and rediscover my passionate spirit!!!

Maintain...

The whirling sound of  the ceiling fan is my background noise as my mind tries to conjure up something witty to say.

All is peaceful on the home front as I watch the trees sway slowly from left to right as the wind blows so gently while the clouds glide by blocking out the sun.

I leisurely sit at my desk scrolling through the latest real estate news on my trusty laptop, keeping up to date on the market. All while multitasking and playing catch up reading my Wall Street Journal. Oh how exciting........NOT!!! 

At least I did manage to get my workout done bright and early this morning, which I am proud to say that I've been sticking to my routine, except I still struggle with winging myself off the junk food....bad, bad girl! Well at least I've been cutting down on the sweets!!!

The other day as I tried to meditate in silence, I realized that I needed to figure out what I truly wanted. For years I've tried to be everything to everyone but myself and I ended up losing a part of myself, which I've been struggling to get back.

After thirteen years of being in a marriage that not only had broken my heart but also my spirit, I realized that I had built a wall within myself and I'm finding it difficult to tear it down. So lately I feel as if I'm in a constant battle over this.

There are days where I feel like I'm just existing but I don't feel alive, if that makes any sense. I go through the motions but there's something missing and it's the fire that once burned fiercely within me. So I struggle to get that back but it hasn't been easy and I will not give up until that fire burns brightly once again.. So I will do whatever is necessary to make it so, even if I have to force myself to open up to the possibilities!!!!

The Aging Body....

Well, it's nice to know that I'm not invincible ( then again, I'm lying). I started going back to the gym

making it my daily early morning routine, keeping myself well toned and healthy as people continue trying to guess my age.

Last week I kind of over did it by lifting more than I should have which resulted in me straining my lower back and let me tell you, it's been a trying recovery because I'm one who likes to heal quickly getting back into routine but instead I've been using a baseball bat as a cane as I get up to walk around my home, putting a generous amount of Icey Hot on the affected area while also using a heating pad until I've finally healed

When I was younger, when you strained a muscle something it took a couple of days to heal but as you get older, well the body takes a little more time to heal than I like, which tends to make me a bit impatient. Ah, to be young again!!!

Sometimes I act as if I'm still young at heart but the body tends to remind me that the maturity of life has crept upon me .

No fair, no fair, I cry wishing there truly was a fountain of youth but instead I will just have to adjust my eating habits (trying so hard to cut out the junk food), stretch before a workout and always lift with my legs.

Moment by moment

I have to admit that I'm a big baby when I get sick.

After a stressful couple of weeks which entailed me dealing with my father being in the hospital (he's better and back home now), the housing market slowing down which is to be expected during this season.

The stock market having more bad days then good starting off the new year and then there's my grown daughter who's under the illusion that I'm going tho take care of her.

When it come to being independent and self sufficient, she certainly isn't her mother's daughter, which is very disappointing.

I started working when I was 12 or 13 delivering newspapers. Moved to NYC when I was 19 with only $100 to my name but my daughter, she just laze around with no ambition or direction and she has so much talent! It's just  frustrating and starting to really tick me off!!

Wait some how I've straid off the beaten path. Where was I, yes I've been fighting a cold that has had me down since my date last Friday (come to find out, he's been sick too).

I missed a dinner at Nicola Thursday and now I'm trying not to miss the #Wonderball event at the Columbus Museum of Art this Saturday. So I'm trying with all my might to knock this cold out of my system with chicken noodle soup with a lot of cayenne pepper, green tea with lemon and now a short of whiskey! 

I'm hoping tomorrow I'll be feeling like my ole self again and ready for the weekend!!!

Now What

So it's a new year and I'm feeling very optimistic!!! It's winter and the housing market has started

slowing down which is to be expected during this season.

So to occupy my time other than preparing for a Springtime marketing campaign, I've been really getting into Day Trading in the stock market. This was one of the many things I enjoyed doing when I was  a lot younger but now I've rediscovered a my passion for it and I have to say I still know how to pick them!

Other than Day Trading, I 've been trying to keep myself busy with other projects in order to fight off cabin fever and boredom (soooo tempted to start drinking coffee again!!!).

The only time I like winter a tad bit is seeing the first snow fall which I always hope it will be either on Christmas eve or Christmas morning and of course it didn't occur on neither day.

The other times where I seem to enjoy snow is if I'm skiing which I haven't done in years or cuddled up with someone special in front of nice roaring fireplace in a nice cozy cabin. The latter could occur if I suggest it for Valentine's Day. That's if the snow is still around but I may plan something a little bit more exciting!! ;)

Other than hanging with my kiddies, I have been enjoying some events around town like Gallery Hop even though I missed this past one due to the fact that I was watching my Steelers.

Just this past weekend my beau and I enjoyed the Refectory's Jazz Dinner Club which the restaurant host upstairs in a private room. The entertainment for the night was BRIAN MICHAEL SMITH singing some tunes of Frank Sinatra!

Along with the entertainment, their amazing and attentive staff served a wonderful four course meal that consisted of Chilled Smoked Salmon/Mussels Feuillete, Duck Mousseline Dome, Asado Marinated/Roasted Veal Medallion and for dessert Pear Bavarian. I highly recommend checking it out.

Another place of interest that we've had the pleasure of visiting these past couple of weeks was the Wexner Center when they were exhibiting Transfigurations - Modern Masters from the Wexner Family Collection, such as Picasso, Edgar Degas, Jean Dubuffet, Willem De Kooning, Alberto Giacometti and Susan Rothernberg. I thank the Wexner family for giving the public a chance to enjoy the work of such artist.

So as you can see instead of  just hanging out with the gals for "Happy Hour", I've been getting back into taking pleasure in the cultural experiences that Columbus has to offer with someone I truly enjoy being with.

Another New Year

Happy New Year to all!!!  Sorry that I'm a couple of days late. It's just I've been a bit occupied but in a very good way!! ;)

My new year was rung in in a very special way and no, I'm not giving details!!!

Just know that thinking about it brings a smile to my face as I hope for many that the new year brings many smiles, plenty of love and lots of laughter!!!

Remember with the New Year it brings new hope, new beginnings and aspirations!!! So let's toast to the New Year and all the many wonderful things it will bring!!!