That time....

Every now and there comes a time for one to reinvent oneself. I believe that time has come for me but now I sit in limbo trying to figure out what I want to do next as I immerse myself in my children's lives trying guide them into creating a prosperous and happy future for themselves. Also I continue to wade through the mystifying dating scene.

Though I've dated a few good men that were gentleman I have yet to find that special one who I truly feel I can be with and share my life with. It's been about two or three years since my last serious relationship and I have to wonder if I've set my standards too high but then again after being in a not so good marriage for thirteen years, one tends to be a bit more cautious when it comes to matters of the heart.

Not Broken (A short story-Pg.2)

The day started off with the sun shining beautifully high above the clouds as the cool autumn breeze drifted through the air.

Finally the day was over and done. As predicted she greeted the day with a smile to shield the world from the heartache that she was feeling. It wasn't only him, she was also dealing with family problems along with other personal issues. She knew she had no choice but to keep it together and be strong.

Luckily this day was quite easy and not too many stressful situations to content with but yet thoughts of him lingered along with the other issues. Why oh why, she thought to herself and then quietly she said to herself, "this too shall pass".

Arriving home she goes through her mail while walking towards the kitchen to open up a bottle of sparkling wine that she had chilling in the frig. Finally getting it opened after struggling for a second she pours herself a glass and downs it. Then she pours herself another glass, taking it along with the bottle she heads upstairs to her spacious master suite.

She walks into the master bathroom with the bottle of sparkling wine and glass still in tow as she slips off her high heels. Placing the bottle and glass on the side of her sunk in tub she reaches to turn the hot water on. Sitting on the edge she pours lavender bubble bath foam and lavender baby oil into running water. As soon as the water reaches the desirable height, she shuts the water off and walks over to the shower and turns it on then she begins to unclothe.

After taking a quick shower, she slowly sinks into the bubble bath that's still quite warm. She begins to lite the candles surrounding the edge of the bathtub. Afterwards she leans her head back onto her bath pillow, picks up the glass of sparkling wine sitting beside her, takes a sip then sits the glass back down.

Soon she closes her eyes listening to a Nora Jones song playing in the background on the smooth jazz station she created on her Pandora's playlist. Soon the moment was taking her away from everything.

Peace and calm has taken over her, she begins to feel euphoric then her phone begins to ring....

Not broken (A short story-Pg.1)

The moon shines brightly outside her bedroom window, giving light to the darkness that surrounds her.

Silence blankets her as she lies there, tears falling down her gentle face.

 

A long hard day filled with unending stress and pain has taken over her, leaving her drained wanting to feel numb.

 

Outside she is a woman full of strength, wisdom and optimism. Inside she is weak crying, wanting to be held tightly, to feel safe.

 

This very moment she is shattered but not broken. Tomorrow she will rise to greet the day with a smile, shielding the world from her pain.

June Events

As the weather begins to get hot, we're reminded that "summer" is right around the corner.
Trips, the frequent trips to the pool and then theres the many events happening this month.

Easton's Food Fest began June 9th and last until the 14th. The Arts Festival and Park Street Festival begins today, Friday June 12th and last until the 14th.

For the Fashionista's like myself, on the 17th of June CMH host it's Fashion Week Launch Party, a must attend event!!

All on the weekend of June 19th, there's Pride Fest, Creekside Blues & Jazz Fest and Juneteenth.

Then of course the wonderful and forever growing Community Festival (aka Comfest)!!!

I'm hoping to attend most if not all of them!!!! Hope to see you there!!!

Let My Spirit Dance

My spirit wishes to dance.

We curtsey before we begin, twirling round and around feeling the rhythm that fills our soul. Silencing the world around us taking in the nuance and exotic undertones, as a feeling of wonder and ecstasy takes over.

Lost in the music of passion that plays within, while time has no purpose. Once again my spirit feels alive and its innocents restored.

Oh how beautiful a dance where my spirit can be vulnerable, happy and free.
Ah, what a feeling!!!
Do you care to join us....

My Passion...

This morning I saw this: 

This is exactly what I've been working on regaining, MY PASSION!!!

I will create again, I will write again, I will reignite my passion and rediscover my passionate spirit!!!

Maintain...

The whirling sound of  the ceiling fan is my background noise as my mind tries to conjure up something witty to say.

All is peaceful on the home front as I watch the trees sway slowly from left to right as the wind blows so gently while the clouds glide by blocking out the sun.

I leisurely sit at my desk scrolling through the latest real estate news on my trusty laptop, keeping up to date on the market. All while multitasking and playing catch up reading my Wall Street Journal. Oh how exciting........NOT!!! 

At least I did manage to get my workout done bright and early this morning, which I am proud to say that I've been sticking to my routine, except I still struggle with winging myself off the junk food....bad, bad girl! Well at least I've been cutting down on the sweets!!!

The other day as I tried to meditate in silence, I realized that I needed to figure out what I truly wanted. For years I've tried to be everything to everyone but myself and I ended up losing a part of myself, which I've been struggling to get back.

After thirteen years of being in a marriage that not only had broken my heart but also my spirit, I realized that I had built a wall within myself and I'm finding it difficult to tear it down. So lately I feel as if I'm in a constant battle over this.

There are days where I feel like I'm just existing but I don't feel alive, if that makes any sense. I go through the motions but there's something missing and it's the fire that once burned fiercely within me. So I struggle to get that back but it hasn't been easy and I will not give up until that fire burns brightly once again.. So I will do whatever is necessary to make it so, even if I have to force myself to open up to the possibilities!!!!